Friday, January 29, 2010

A Bright New Shiny Day

I went to my first Support group last eve. It is where I need to be. I am them and they are me. I am not alone.

This will be short as we are going traveling this weekend. I plan to turn 53 sitting in a hot springs stewing my aching bones. Back to the Group. Thanks be to God I was ready to handle all I learned there. If I had not had the revelation of being "right in Christ" I could not have stood it. "In Christ" I am becoming a new creation and old things are passing away. But, I have hit and drug bottom several times during my life. I have been ashamed of my willingness to drop down into the mire, and then my seeming inability to lift myself out of said muck. I have felt contaminated at my core. "In Christ" I no longer feel contaminated, but, last night I found out I am set apart because of my familiarity with degradation and despair. I need the company and support of other people who have come to the end of themselves and found God to be their only strength. I have been toting a burden I didn't even know I was carrying for a long, long time. With God's help and the care of others' I see a way clear to putting it down.

Amen Love Bea

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey BE(a.) Sorry I missed support group:( I told you I would be there. I did come out but I didn't see your car and I was late so I didn't want to interupt the meeting.I am trying to go through the steps and step four is HUGE!! My list is so big with no end in sight.
I'm so glad you are getting outa here for your B-day.! Its what most of us need right now.
I probably won't make the Sun night meeting because I have to go to Jackson and do 4 blood draws and EKG's that day. So if you make it back from soaking the bones and g to meeting please take good notes for me :)Havew a wonderful B- day!! Sherry

Anonymous said...

Love your blog. Have been a long time reader. Can relate to so much that you have written about. So proud of the steps you take in life! Keep going! You're beautiful! Lilly

Cindy said...

I am so glad you found some support! Can't wait to hear more about it!!

Annimal said...

Please write in detail like you are so good at. I've never found a support group that I've clicked with. Hoorah for you!