Thursday, January 31, 2013

Self Gratification

Lent is coming.  I am so relieved.

I will get to give up television for a month and a half.  I willl experience much during this time, and I will have no t.v. to clutter up what I am experiencing. It is like waking up from a long drugged sleep when I quit watching television.  I notice for the first time in months what is going on around me.  I get the house cleaned, the bills organized and paid and friends called or emailed.  I plan and shop for our meals.  I exercise.  I read after supper and go to bed early.  I suddenly have room in my life to live. 

That stupid black box sucks up me and gives nothing back.  I do realize that my television is like a gun, it is the user who is the problem.  I avoid real life by watching fake life.  I substitute passive reception for active learning.  I am not the first one to recognize the connection between tube viewing and eating.  I take in and get or give nothing back.  It is all about me.  Self gratification with diminishing returns.  Except my weight that does not diminish.

I am fine.  I am snowed under.  A foot of snow fell this week.  Oh well, this too shall melt. 

I will be writing more...often.

love bea