Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Avoidance

I am outside on the deck. Incredible.

I am fine. Husband is fine. Dog is fine. Cat is self congratulatory. Summer is grand. I am being besieged by humming birds as I am wearing a black and red flannel shirt. I am freezing to death out here but I refuse to go inside. I have waited years to be able to type outdoors and by darn I am going to do it.

I wish I had good news on the fat front. But no. I weigh 200 lbs. I have been avoiding doing anything about it. In fact I have been avoiding many things for many years.

I bought this computer in April. I have put off getting a wifi connection for four months because I knew it would be a hassle, I don't like to ask for help and I was afraid in trying to set it up I would some how permanently damage my new computer. Dumb really. I deprived my self of the pleasure of typing outdoors in the cold and mosquitoes because I didn't like to trouble anyone.

I am praying a new type of prayer. It is called "binding prayer." As a result of some family difficulties I was made aware of my avoidance problem. I prayed the binding prayer about avoidance and was given the courage to get some stuff done. One of the stuffs was getting my computer hooked up. Today I called and got a wifi connection. It was every bit as difficult as imagined it would be. Too involved to get into but believe me when I tell you getting electronic service in this mountain valley is a nightmare. I had to stand up to the phone company rep and demand service. I got service, in person, and a free router to boot. I am so proud of myself I could sing.

Okay I have to stop. I am frozen. Was 38 degrees this morning and I think it will be cold again tonight. I am grateful for the good sleeping weather even if flannel sheets and wool blanket are ridiculous in July. The pigs are grunting next door. I think they are cold too.

Bye. I am taking my computer indoors.

Love Bea

4 comments:

Cindy said...

I remember how excited I was to get my laptop with wireless so I could type on the patio, at the coffee shop, and in any room of the house. Like you I will do anything to avoid techie stuff that involves changing vendors or upgrading services and house visits, installations, and so on. I stay with the same cable company because of this. It is just so fantastic to have you blogging again. I miss the comradery, commiseration, encouragement, and laughs!! I have not lost any additional weight and stay teetering at the same brink most of the time, but I am trying to move forward. I say this as I sip coffee with ice cream in it (because we had an ice cream social at work). Anyway, it was never really and truly about the weight loss, it was about the sharing of our day to days and our stuff, sometimes deep stuff, sometimes light. And how we deal with life. I want to know more about binding prayer.. Thanks!!!

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Cindy said...

PS I somehow posted twice, so I deleted the second one, plus I forgot to proof and check my spelling..sorry

Christie said...

This is fantastic!