Thank you all for your posts. I didn't realize how much my inexpert handling of my crap resonated with people. Is a comfort to know my feet of clay extending clear up to my a** is helpful to someone.
Mark's job is on hold for two months. His position will be reevaluated again at that time. If all goes well we will stay here, if not we move.
I have learned much about politics in the past month. I am not a politician's wife. I am much too soft hearted. Criticism of Mark just about kills me. Especially when it is unjust. Insight: If you go around picking up your bosses crap...you end up with crap on your hands in spite of a sterling character. Insight: If your wife gets mad and makes a big scene at the Republican convention and comes close to knocking down a county official it does not help your public career. Even if a number of men come up to you afterward in private and tell you how lucky you are to have a wife that loves you that much. Go figure.
The spectre of job loss and a move shocked and galvanized me. I spend way to much money on stuff to alleviate loneliness and boredom. Food would be at the top of the list. Books would be second and movies/t.v. come in third. The prospect of possibly having no paycheck in two months has forced me to stop my self indulgent spending. And...we got wayyyyyyy to much stuff. I am going through our stuff with a stern eye. If I don't want to pay to have it moved, out it goes. This is as far as I have come, but we only found out the bad news about the job a week ago.
I have done more praying in the past three weeks than in the past three years. I am learning to put the future and the past in God's hands. I can only work with today. I have a couple of scripture verses I go around muttering all day. They help. Oh I had better confess I am still angry and bitter at specific people about the way Mark was treated. Mentor Mary says the best way to deal with your enemies is to pray for them. It is like "heaping coals of fire on their heads." I now remember these people in my prayers...oh, about a thousand times a day. I am sure this is not how she meant it.
I am fine. I can handle major crisis and pain. It is the day to day little stings that trip me up. Mollie is fine. We had a flat tire fixed the other day. People are always telling me how beautiful she is. The tire store was no exception. She was the belle of the ball. Not bad for a dog who spent the first year of her life chained to a tree eating her own poop. She is snoring at my feet.
I have a fine husband, a good dog, a character filled cat and a God who loves me. I am blessed.
AND I HAVE LOST SIX MORE DAMN POUNDS!!!!!!!!
Love Bea
5 comments:
inexpert handling of your crap caused a weight loss of 6 pounds -go figure! :)
ditto what Cindy said. I love the fact that they were Damn Pounds.
I love the feet of clay that go up to the ass...Doll Im a reflexologist now and once also had feet of clay. They say reflexology finds you and "even" a housewife can learn how to do it. Check Kevin Kunz's blog on the same site as yours (it's how I found you by accidently pressing the next button) Maybe that could be your new career...Reflexology has a way of attracting all sorts of characters. :)
I can totally relate to handling the big stuff but getting caught up in the tiddly daily problems...You seem like a nice person. Good luck...Glad you're losing those damn pounds.
Sending you good karma all the way from Athens, Greece.
I am so glad to see a post - you are so refreshing.. From one inexpert crap handler to another. I had job loss hanging over my head for seven months last year so I can relate to some of what you are going through. Everytime we spent any money or even thought about spending money, and so on I re-evaluated our lifestyle, our needs, our wants and we have way too much stuff, too! I purged in 2005 when I moved but boy did we pile it back on! I like heaping lumps of prayer coal. I needed to be reminded of that today especially after one of what I hope will be my last couple of conversations with the tenant. Thanks again for the post and I know things will work out for you guys and no matter what happens it will be an adventure. I hope I get to share it with you in spirit. Keep writing. Makes my day! congrats on the six damn pounds!!!
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