Sunday, October 19, 2008

New Beginnings

This is going to be fast as I am supposed to be putting the finishing touches on my Sunday school lesson.

I am reading three books all saying the same thing, "take care of yourself." One is even from a Christian perspective! I am ruminating at all times about the new info I am being given. One of the books talks a lot about dissociation. Turns out this is me. One of the books talks about habit vs. addiction. Surprise, surprise, my "out of control" eating turns out to be more habitual than addictive. The last of the books is about "turning the other cheek" and "the Good Samaritan." My upbringing has left me beset with guilt for not being a good Christian. This book talks about believing vs. doing "good works." I will write more later about all of these tomes.

I am dreaming about food. Almost every night. And mountains. In the dreams I am scaling mountains and can't stand the sight of food! I wake up nauseated at the visions of sugarplums dancing in my head. Very strange but progress I think.

Sorry I am not reading blogs. I will be back. We are still preparing like mad for winter. The snow melted and we are winterizing the house. Mark got the storm windows done and we are now buying plywood to put around the foundation of the house. They do this here so the weight of the snow will not pack down the soil around the foundation. Works for me. Hope all of you are doing well.

Take care. Love Bea

4 comments:

Vickie said...

I didn't realize until I read your posting - that I think I have totally stopped ruminating.

I also remember the dreaming about food thing - only mine was that I HAD eaten it - and the feeling after was early the same as if I had actually eaten it all.

Doing our own preparing for winter here - not on your scale of course - did my mom's house several weeks ago and my husband is working on ours now - mostly raking LEAVES (which I can't even be outside when he does this or I won't be able to breathe).

Was glad to see you posting - look forward to more when you are snow bound. . .

Lori G. said...

I just wanted to tell you that I read an author profile on the Washington Post today (Monday) and it reminded me of something. I wanted to tell you about the writer and how I think you really might enjoy her books, esp. Gilead. Her name is Marilynne Robinson. It's not a self-help book AT ALL. But there's something about it that makes me think you would find it fascinating if nothing else.

Cindy said...

Wow, your dreams are amazing. You are moving into new territory! I am leaving for Ohio business trip but hope to have time to blog soon. Snow sounds amazing, too, it is comforting and soft, it quiets and slows things down, but then I don't live where you do..

Cindy said...

PS, you will have to tell me what the books are. disassociation (sp?) is something I want to learn about. Thanks!!