I have started a diet. Began Atkins yesterday. I am determined to get this ten pounds I gained off. Quickly if possible. It is just the change I needed.
I hate my healthy food plan. I feel deprived. I have had it with fresh fruit and veg and grain and low fat dairy and lean meat. I want bread and chocolate and circuses. Well gentle readers, I may have found an antidote to the boredom. On Atkins there is no fruit, dairy, grains, and only limited veg. Suddenly those oranges, berries, sweet potatoes, oatmeal, yogurt and beans look wonderful. As I slogged through my hamburger patty and sliced tomatoes for breakfast I drooled over Mark's glowing orange, and creamy oatmeal. I am going to have sardines in mustard sauce and lettuce for lunch. I'd kill for a garbanzo bean. I know the idea is never to diet again, but I tell you what, I feel energized. I am only going to do this until the ten pounds come off and then I will go back to my luscious food plan.
I think it is the idea of the never ending battle with my weight that gets me down. Maybe that's just the all or nothing thinking. Maybe someday I won't have to struggle with my appetite everyday. But at 51 I am inclined to doubt it. I wish I had thought to diet months ago when I hit the plateau. Instead I just tried to hang in there and keep doing what had been working. No dice. The scale did not move. I got very discouraged and the calorie creep began. The creep has turned into a full blown relapse. Yes the move and the dog were shocks to my system and I probably would have fallen off the wagon anyway. But...since I fell off the wagon I have been loathe to get back on because it wasn't going anywhere!!!! A limited "diet" is my answer. It has a beginning and an end. Not just the perpetual food plan and no results. I need to lose some pounds to make me want to lose some more. Nothing succeeds like success.
My food plan will be my life time eating pattern. If I want a treat I can have it and just "eat less" of it. If I go off the rails completely and gain a few pounds I have the option of a diet. Why did I never think of this? Because I am a rule follower. The rules of the game are healthy eating and to NEVER INTENTIONALLY DIET AGAIN. I was sticking to the rules. I was not losing any weight and I was bored with the idea and tastes of my food plan so I began to cheat. I kept trying to force myself back to my food plan with zero motivation for so doing. I knew dieting was not the answer because all the authorities say so. "Just stick to your plan and all will be well." Did not work for me. So I am Atkinsing. I could just as easily be South Beaching. I am motivated because I think I will begin to lose again. We will see if this new (old) strategy works.
Let me know what you think. Take care. Love Bea